I have recently had some in depth conversations with my therapist in regard to the trauma I suffered as a child and how they were direct contributions to my heroin addiction. As we have been exploring these events, a lot of feelings have surfaced that I never knew even existed. The purpose of starting a blog was so that I could put down some of the things I’ve been carrying for years. I found that incredibly hard, impossible actually, when some of the people involved subscribed to my previous blog. Therefore, I have decided to proceed from a place of anonymity so that I may protect them and my relationships with them. My goal is not to cause more destruction, but to find peace. Peace with my loved ones, my past and most importantly myself.